I'm constantly feeling so empty
That I should be drowned in my own blood.
The world has changed and shaped me;
But this time it's harder to breathe.
This time I feel like I'm drowning inside the infinite ocean. The people that know me, they just walk away with a fake smile on their face, pretending like nothing is wrong. My family might pretend to worry about me and my emotions that seem to never stop raging, but deep down they can't stand the person I've become. All the tears I've cried are seeping into my soul, causing pain that never seems to leave. I've been through so much that it seems impossible to feel any enjoyment in life anymore. But it isn't impossible, I can just never tell anyone what my life is like, who would understand.
It seems like whenever I think of someone that could understand me;
I'm always disappointed with the results. They want to save me, but there's a part of me that wishes they'd just go away. When I try to share my problems with someone they seem to avoid talking about it, or just say so many things that I never knew were true. You see I'm still the same old person you've always known me as, but at times I just wish for someone to tell me that all the pain and suffering was worth it, everything was worth it.